What I Dislike Most: Being Told What to Do—A Lifelong Struggle
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Chapter 1: A Vintage Perspective on Change
It's true—I'm vintage! This might explain my strong aversion to change, a sentiment deeply rooted in my life experiences spanning over fifty years. Let me share a bit about my journey:
- I graduated high school at sixteen.
- I completed college in just nine months.
- I finished law school in two and a half years.
- I wrapped up graduate school in eight months.
It's clear that I've always been eager to leap into the next phase of life. Consequently, being instructed on what I should do doesn't quite align with my nature. You might wonder: Is this behavior normal or healthy? To that, I say—why not?
I advanced to Sergeant First Class in seven years, became a Senior Drill Sergeant in just one year, and earned certifications as a Master Fitness Trainer, Paratrooper, and Combat Medic, among others. And then, I decided to step away!
I have no love for idleness. Rather, I thrive on constant activity, which makes being told what to do feel counterproductive. Can you relate?
I often turn to Forensic Files for a bit of distraction while learning about forensic science. I walk to the courthouse to ensure I hit my ten thousand steps daily. I eat on the go to squeeze in more tasks. I am a doer—I can't help it!
Despite my relentless drive, I feel the effects of aging creeping up on me. Lately, it seems my youthful energy is waning, leading me to consider slowing down. The urge to work out has diminished, as has my desire for constant activity and social engagement.
Recently, I've found myself frustrated when loved ones fail to recognize these changes within me. It's not their fault; yet, I wish they understood. However, I know that’s perfectly alright.
Reflecting on my fast-paced life, I can't help but feel like the Grinch—yes, the Jim Carrey version—as my family likes to remind me.
Looking back, I realize my loved ones were never trying to boss me around; they genuinely wanted to ensure my success. Yet, my need to have the final say often led me to disengage. I know this isn't the best approach!
Today's lesson for me is clear: I need to embrace the teachings of the Word of God as I navigate this new chapter in my life. My aim is to show more mercy, compassion, affection, and love to those God has placed in my life—even when it feels challenging. That's my goal, and the motivation behind this post.
Section 1.1: The Need for Understanding
As I reflect on my experiences, it's crucial to recognize the importance of understanding one another. We all have our struggles, and empathy goes a long way in fostering deeper connections.
Subsection 1.1.1: Embracing Change
Section 1.2: The Role of Compassion
In this journey, compassion plays a vital role. It’s not just about my desires but also about recognizing the needs of those around me.
Chapter 2: Moving Forward with Grace
As I continue to learn and grow, I aim to embrace these life lessons with grace and understanding.