Chapter 1: The Beginning of My Spiritual Journey

From an early age, I found myself captivated by spiritual concepts. I immersed myself in literature, practiced tarot, and embraced meditation. Everything seemed to progress smoothly as I absorbed knowledge and felt a deep connection to it.

However, my journey took an unexpected turn when I encountered a phrase that left me feeling lost and resistant: "We create our reality." At the time, I was grappling with severe financial difficulties, and my family often relied on food banks to get by. The notion that we shape our reality felt like an unkind joke, especially since I was unaware that our souls plan these experiences.

During this challenging period, I struggled to accept this idea. Anger consumed me, directed at the universe for what felt like our misfortunes. I temporarily distanced myself from my spiritual path, seeking survival over solace.

The Hardest Thing about the Spiritual Path - This video delves into the challenges faced when confronting the notion of personal responsibility and reality creation in spiritual development.

As financial stability returned, I cautiously re-engaged with spirituality. One pivotal moment was when I read "Creative Visualization" by Shakti Gawain, which opened my eyes to the power of creation. I began to understand that my thoughts and emotions significantly influenced my perception of life.

If I could speak to my past self, I would emphasize that it’s not about controlling every detail of existence; rather, it's about managing my reactions. The concept of creating our reality gradually became clearer to me.

Chapter 2: Embracing Inner Growth

The Hardest Thing I Ever Had to Learn - This video explores the lessons of self-acceptance and the importance of inner work on the path to spiritual enlightenment.

Through my journey, I discovered the necessity of turning inward, embracing self-love, and practicing mindfulness. Acknowledging my thoughts and consciously shifting them toward positivity became vital steps in my healing process.

Reflecting on the events that led to our financial struggles, I recognize that impulsive choices played a role (I was unaware of my neurodivergence at the time). While it’s essential to take responsibility, blaming ourselves for life’s challenges is counterproductive. Instead, acknowledging our mistakes and learning from them holds greater significance.

The idea that "we create our reality" can be difficult to accept, yet it rings true. As my spirit guide Rowland often reminds me, life is ultimately what we make of it.